My Mom and Dad that raised me and my BF Jaybird have truly blown me away with their love and SUPPORT in my decision to move. They have stepped up to the emotional plate and hit home run after home run. I don't even know how to thank them for how much they've paid attention to my relationship with C. and GET it that I have to be with them. They're not making me feel guilty for leaving, but empowered instead - with their love. I'm really amazed and so very Thankful.

I love the new DRESS I just bought! I'm going to look so coooooollll!!! It's black with bright rainbow-lots-of-color 70's style flowers on it. It's empire waste which makes me look fab and it's SHORT!! (and it was on SALE, 70% off (and cheap to begin with,O.M.G.!!) But the short thing is cool because I got these PERFECTLY matching bright dark teal tights (at the thrift store for 50 cents!!!) that match one of the colors in the dress - again perfectly. AND I already have the coolest Dark Purpley-Marroon platform shoes that match the dress as well that will look so dang cool!!

I can't wait to take a picture to send to C. and to go out and be SEEN in this! :P

I love the feeling I get when I go and hang out with people from my church. It always seems to lift me up and I always learn a lot in our small groups but as of late with everything going crazy - the good feelings of acceptance and happiness seem to be magnified. They're such and understanding excepting group and are only there to listen and help, never judge. We laugh and learn and pray together and it's a true blessing at this time in my life.

I've had a lot of stuff to love in the last few months but not a lot of time to get to it. But here we go!

I LOVE LOVE LOVED baking cookies and making treats on the saturday before Christmas this (well 07) year with my Mom. We've never done anything like that together before but it turned out to be a great experience.

My mom brought BOXES of stuff and an extra table over to my place and we set up shop around 11 a.m. We started baking and didn't stop for even a BREAK until 9 P.M.!! My back was sore and my arms hurt but we sure did have a lot of fun and make a lot of treats. Holy crap a lot of stuff! We made Spritz cookies for the first time and had a ball figuring out our presses, we made sugar cookies to decorate, mint surprises, oatmeal butterscotch, oreo cream cheese balls, pretzel rods dipped in chocolate and rolled in crushed heath bar, haystacks, pretzel-rollo-pecan-thingies, and fudge.

We both gave away almost all of what we made (lord knows we couldn't eat it all) and it made a LOT of nice gifts for people that I don't know very well (C's friends.)

My mom and I had a great time being together more than we normaly get to and I look forward to doing it more. :)

This computer honestly gets me through the day at work. Without it I'd be cut off and bored and most likely go stir crazy from not enough to do. Okay PLUS I'd have to do all my paperwork, accounting, billing, blah blah blah by hand and that would be a nightmare.

This computer takes me to the Internet where I can read and write and laugh and feel slightly more human than I do in my office. I don't have one at home so it makes it that much more special you know?

I am thankful for this computer.

Ladies? I am SO thankful for Motrin, Tylenol and the like. Who came up with this stuff that makes my life bearable during my "visitor" time? Can I send them a Christmas card????

Seriously though, sometimes at the beginning of my visitor I get such gosh awful pains that if I don't get on them QUICK I will be reduced to a writhing mass of horridness begging to be put down like a horse. No lie, one time it was so bad I WANTED to go to the hospital and beg them to knock me out but I physically couldn't get out of bed.

Once I didn't have enough regular stuff in the house - only two Motrin and 1 Tylenol and ended up taking 12 aspirin in a couple of hours trying ANYTHING to make it stop. Eventually I passed out but when I woke up the next day I had buzzing in my ears and couldn't hear very well for a day or so. I imagine I came a tad too close to taking too many pills.

These days I've got it DOWN though and I know that as SOON as my visitor arrives if I start taking the recommended dose of Tylenol -BEFORE any pain - that I'll do just fine. Last week I forgot and woke up in the middle of the night from a nightmare that an animal was eating me to discover OOPS I forgot the Tylenol, but luckily had my emergency stash, took 4, writhed around for a bit and managed to get back to normal in a half hour.

Without simple pain killers like these I most likely wouldn't be the same person. I'd either go nuts or end up putting myself out of my misery.

SO!! I am super-extra-for-real-like-crazy- THANK FULL for whomever it was that made my life livable.

C. Text messaged me the other day for NO REASON. We hardly ev-ver do it. He texted
"Hey beautiful, I Love You." That was it, short and sweet, but I was in the store and a tad stressed out and it really just all-of-a-sudden made my day.

To some his message might sound kind of blah overdone or lame but from HIM to ME it was great. I love him enough to know that he MEANS it and it's not just some cookie cutter crap he's pulling out of his ass. I love that I believe him.